H is for Halfway

Today I received my fourth chemo treatment, and the last of what they call the Red Devil. (Doxorubicin) I am halfway through.

One more week. One more week of feeling like total crap. One more week, and the worst of this should be over. The drug in the last four rounds isn’t prone to making you nauseous near as much as the current one. The pharmacist said today that I wouldn’t even need anti nausea meds at all, and that my fatigue should improve. Right now, especially the week after, I am taking meds every four hours, and I can’t miss or I am miserable. Not having to take ANY will be a welcome change! So far it has gone pretty fast for me, so I guess that’s a good thing. The boys are at Grandmas this weekend so I am just going to relax as much as I can, and get ready to plod my way through one more bad week. I can do this! Soon I’m gonna see that glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel… 😊

F is for Follow

Those of you that are keeping up on my blog and haven’t taken the time to sign in and “follow” me, please do so. It would be nice, (and comforting!) to be able to see my supporters listed out in front of me! It will also help me in daily conversations so I know who knows what. Thank you everyone! ❤️

J is for Jinx

I should have never bragged about how well I’m doing… The very day after my last post, I woke up and felt like I had been hit with a ton of bricks. It was all I could do to get out of bed and get the boys ready for school, and I ended up missing my first two days of work. (And hopefully my last!) I did nothing but sleep and sit in my recliner, and am once again happy that our family was around to help with the boys. By Saturday my energy level was up a little, and by Sunday, it was like a switch flipped and I was back to feeling completely normal. I even felt good enough to do a little yard work, it was so beautiful! This only feeling good 50% of the time is starting to get to me! I feel like I need to jam so much into the week that I feel good… Groceries, cleaning, and not to even mention spending time with my boys! Caleb has been so good, but he is ready for this to be over (says it’s taking forever!) He did say the sweetest thing the other say when I was noticing that my eyelashes were starting to thin… “The good thing about loosing your eyelashes is you will get lots of wishes!” Don’t worry buddy, I’ll be using up all of those babies.

T is for Trooper

At my last checkup, as I was listing off the many side effects that I’ve had with my chemo, my doctor told me that I was a trooper.  The nausea, stomach cramps, over all feeling of blah….  I have been dealing with it like a champ I guess.  I don’t see that as any thing to brag about, what choice do I have really?  I’m still working.  Still taking care of my kids.  Since it isn’t my first rodeo, I guess I walked into this situation with my head above water.  I knew I wasn’t going to feel good.  I knew I was going to loose my hair.  Both things I have no control over, so why whine about it, you know?   With that said though, I will mention that Nebraska wind and my wig do NOT go together very well…  I am finding that I need a hat to keep the damn hair in place!  It doesn’t exactly look like natural hair once it’s been blown around, so if you ever see me in that situation, please don’t stare!  Hahaha!    And one thing is for sure, the wind is going to blow, so I guess it’s something I’ll have to get used to.  Dr. Reed did share some hopeful words when she told me that there is a chance my hair will start growing back during my next chemo drug, (the last four sessions) which begins on April 25th.  Only one more nasty “RED DEVIL” treatment left, and I will not be sad to see that one go…. 

So far it’s been pretty predictable…  I feel crappy the week after, then the next week, just as I am about back to feeling normal, they knock me down again.  It’s a definite roller coaster, but I am grateful to have the one week of feeling good at least!  Gives me a chance to catch up…..

I is for Insomnia

After a rough weekend, (another fever, feeling run down), I have come around and am back to feeling pretty normal, just as I did the last chemo cycle. The only side effect that is getting to me now is insomnia. I’ve never really had a lot of trouble with it in the past, but evidently it is a common side effect for chemo patients. I am hoping to find a solution soon! Seems ironic that I’m so tired all if the time but I can’t sleep at night! I am excited for a much needed girls night this week… It seems like it’s been ages! Then the boys and I are headed to Omaha for the weekend. Caleb has spring break, and I think mom has some fun things planned for the boys while I receive my chemo treatment on Friday. I am hopeful the “wonder drug” will have me feeling as well as I did last time so I can enjoy some time with them over the weekend too!

Hair is almost completely gone, and although it is still a bit of a shock, I continue to enjoy the ease of getting ready in the morning… It’s amazing how much time you spend on hair! I may never go back to the real thing. 😉

M is for Meh

So, it appears that the “good drugs” that I got this time around wore off about Tuesday afternoon, and I have felt like poo ever since. It was a blister pack of three pills, to be taken specifically the three days after chemo starts, so when you are done, you’re done. I am not violently ill or anything, just extremely tired, and occasionally nauseous. I am relying a lot on friends, neighbors, and family to get me through these rough weeks after my treatments, and am thankful to be able to come home and nap in the afternoons! I am looking forward to feeling better next week, just before they knock me down again. As Dory says, “Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming…”

B is for Buzzcut

On Sunday afternoon, I invited some girls over and we had a wine drinking, head shaving party… It wasn’t near as emotional as I would have expected it to be, and I was almost relieved afterward. It had been coming out in handfuls for the last two days, so it was rather liberating to have it taken off! I debuted my wig at work for the first time and had a lot of people fooled, so that was a good feeling. I also still feel pretty decent too, (tired is all) so all in all, the week has started off pretty good! Let’s hope it stays this way! Happy St. Patty’s Day all!!